Further Away
Jan. 25th, 2011 09:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
askygoneonfire I was going to write about how conflicted I am over what to do about mortgage stuff having been to see a mortgage advisor today and being told it's within my grasp.
I was also going to write about how unrewarding, stressful and frustrating my job is. How I can't sleep for stress dreams and how tired I am at feeling stupid because I don't have a head for figures and doing payroll - dealing with pensions, tax and factored payments makes me want to smash my head against the desk.
How I am also frustrated, tired and upset by how poorly I grasp mortgage calculations and budgeting for a mortgage - and how I will know if I can afford it when I see the bills. I have no abstract sense of numbers, interest, percentages....nothing. I nod and I smile and go "oh I see!" when I am no better informed than I was a moment ago.
And I was going to write about the Manics again, and how simple everything seems when I am in front of them, surrounded by them, immersed. Which is why I have spent every evening since Saturday watching Manics DVDs and listening to albums, to the exclusion of everything else.
But I'm tired. And I've summarised. And I want to watch more Manics now.
I was also going to write about how unrewarding, stressful and frustrating my job is. How I can't sleep for stress dreams and how tired I am at feeling stupid because I don't have a head for figures and doing payroll - dealing with pensions, tax and factored payments makes me want to smash my head against the desk.
How I am also frustrated, tired and upset by how poorly I grasp mortgage calculations and budgeting for a mortgage - and how I will know if I can afford it when I see the bills. I have no abstract sense of numbers, interest, percentages....nothing. I nod and I smile and go "oh I see!" when I am no better informed than I was a moment ago.
And I was going to write about the Manics again, and how simple everything seems when I am in front of them, surrounded by them, immersed. Which is why I have spent every evening since Saturday watching Manics DVDs and listening to albums, to the exclusion of everything else.
But I'm tired. And I've summarised. And I want to watch more Manics now.
