Reading List - 2021
Jan. 1st, 2021 12:43 amLast year was a really bad year for reading. I couldn't concentrate, couldn't settle on anything, and when I did read, I struggled to hold things in my head. The pandemic and mental weirdness combined unhelpfully. This year I am aiming for a book a month, on the grounds that 2 days of reading in a month is achievable as an activity, and it might become enough of a habit I read more, but if not I will still have a sense of ticking over on books (and will read 2 more than I did last year). I'm also thinking about giving Audible a go, after a friend got through huge numbers of books last year with it; in particular it's a great thing to listen to when I'm walking and works as a bit of an incentive for that, so we'll see.
January
March-May
Nothing.
June
9. Night Watch - Terry Pratchett I needed to be at home somewhere, and Ankh will always be welcoming, especially when I get to walk the streets with Sam.
10. The Galaxy and the Ground Within - Becky Chambers This was the first book I have read - or piece of art of any sort - which is in any way about the pandemic/lockdown. I don't know if it was because I was in a weird place, or because of the lockdown allegory, but I didn't love this. It never really got going. As ever, the characterisation was flawless and the people were all real. But it didn't land anywhere hard, like the other three in the series did. It was nice to live there for a while, all the same.
July
11. Going Postal - Terry Pratchett I remember loving this the first time I read it. Perhaps it is my low mood or perhaps I have just moved on in some way, but I found it unevenly weighted in the narrative and although it had some excellent bits, it's not one of my all time favourites anymore.
August
12. Solutions and Other Problems - Allie Brosh This was tremendous. I had put off reading it because the first book was quite nothingy in the end but this is a whole, intentional book. There are themes and stuff. It's sad and devastatingly on the money via a light touch of laugh out loud bits - which such be impossible but isn't.
September
13. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows - JK Rowling I started reading this months ago on the grounds I find HP a comfort but the peril was too much and I stopped. Picked it up and finished it over a couple of days in the sun.
14. Sensible Footwear: A Girl's Guide - Kate Charlesworth This is part memoir, part history of LGBT rights in the UK. I really liked it as a resource, and the interspersing of personal with broader community history. I found the pattern made it hard to read in a sustained way - which I wanted to because of the personal story. And sometimes facts would be repeated which added to it feeling a bit of a slog in places. But it's a lovely history, and so nice to have a UK, women focused one.
October
January
1. Let's Pretend This Never Happened - Jenny Lawson. I'm about 90% sure a friend recommended this to me and I vaguely went "oh yes, the Bloggess, I used to read her" because I've been on the internet for a hundred years and that's how it is with famous bloggers of old. It's a fine book. Oddly dated for being 4 years old - blogging and fame for blogging is different now - and quite one note in the humour. It all felt vaguely familiar (no doubt because of historical blog readership) and a handful of sections made me laugh out loud but it's not something I enjoyed to the last.
2. How It Feels to Float - Helena Fox. This was one that Teddy read to me so I mostly listened to it while tramping around Southampton's green spaces which meant the descriptions of Australian beaches ended up confusingly woven into a grey and wintery English landscape. It's broadly very good. I had some issues with how flat characters around Biz are and found the depiction of psychiatric services to be so neat and efficient as to be, ironically, pure fantasy. But it had a good rhythm and a rich style that I enjoyed.
3. High Fidelity - Nick Hornby. How I've got to the grand old age of 36 without reading this is a mystery to me. It's a mercy I didn't read it as a teen, I would have learnt all the wrong lessons from it. At the same age as the protagonist, though, it's a well observed, pleasantly honest depiction of a very normal man behaving awfully in all the ways very normal people do. I enjoyed it.
4. Hyperbole and a Half: Unfortunate Situations, Flawed Coping Mechanisms, Mayhem, and Other Things That Happened - Allie Brosh. It's weird to me that I've only just read this. I read the blog back before it was the biggest thing on the internet. I read it before everyone knew it. And I felt kind of sad when it was suddenly public property instead of that one blog for weird people to laugh-cry at. I laughed at a lot of this. The new-for-the-book material is probably weaker than the original blog posts that make up about half the content, which makes me wonder what the new book (sitting on my bookshelf after being a Christmas gift) is going to be like. But it was fun. And I snort laughed at old jokes.
5. Rebecca - Daphne du Maurier I can't believe how much I liked this book. Unfortunately I made the mistake of reading the short essay at the end of the edition I bought which offered an incredibly facile review of the themes. The argument in the essay was that Rebecca was the most interesting and full character this is obviously nonsense: almost everything we learn about Rebecca comes from the fantasies of the narrator. The essay also noted that the house was a significant presence but failed to grasp the things which the house represented. The house is a representation of du Winter's mother and his failure to separate from her - this seems especially clear given what the essay notes about du Maurier's awareness of Freud - Maxim's terror of women, dramatised through his horror at Rebecca's sexuality and his sister's self possession, AND his lack of respect for the lesbian Mrs Danvers, are all evidence of this. That the narrator wants to be wife AND mother to him all confirm this depiction of his immature psyche. What I found interesting though was not du Winter, but the narrator's shift from passivity to submission and in submission she is awakened and empowered and strengthened. All of this is missed in the essay, which weakly ends saying women like to buy romances, and melodrama is negative. Fuck off, you missed the point.
6. On Connection - Kae Tempest It's not perfect. But my goodness, it does have a lot of useful things to say.
February
7. Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny - Holly Madison I've wanted to read this since it came out as I was obsessed with the slow car crash of post feminism that was The Girls Next Door (or "Girls of the Playboy Mansion' as it was broadcast in the UK). Good things, it seems either ghost written or heavily edited. The authors note at the beginning is borderline illiterate so I'm glad she wasn't given total authorship. Bad things; it's problematic as hell that she talks about lengthy, textbook abusive relationships as "whirlwind romances that ended badly" instead of labelling them for what they were. She's throwing women under the bus left right and centre for behaving in the same ways she did, or different ways for the same reasons and I wanted to shake her into a proper feminist awareness. But what can you do. It's sad. I feel like solidarity with other women is what all of these women need more than anything else.
8. The Book of Koli - M.R. Carey I got about halfway through this and knew I was going to be disappointed because it wasn't going anywhere fast enough to resolve. It's written as a trilogy, which is fine. But if you can't tell a rounded story in part one of a trilogy, you haven't written a trilogy, you've written a really long book which has been arbitrarily published in three books. I like the way in which technology which is broadly familiar (touch screens, voice interface etc) but projected into future (AI, lasers that operate in ways our lasers can't) is described - and handled - in an unfamiliar way. I've often remarked that in Trek when they go back in time (especially when they go to the 1960s in TOS) it's unrealistic they can use computers so easily as that knowledge is lost realy quickly - so it was great seeing that incorporated. Otherwise though, disappointing in worldbuilding (yes big ideas about texture of world, but socially and in terms of people? not so good) and plodding in pace.2. How It Feels to Float - Helena Fox. This was one that Teddy read to me so I mostly listened to it while tramping around Southampton's green spaces which meant the descriptions of Australian beaches ended up confusingly woven into a grey and wintery English landscape. It's broadly very good. I had some issues with how flat characters around Biz are and found the depiction of psychiatric services to be so neat and efficient as to be, ironically, pure fantasy. But it had a good rhythm and a rich style that I enjoyed.
3. High Fidelity - Nick Hornby. How I've got to the grand old age of 36 without reading this is a mystery to me. It's a mercy I didn't read it as a teen, I would have learnt all the wrong lessons from it. At the same age as the protagonist, though, it's a well observed, pleasantly honest depiction of a very normal man behaving awfully in all the ways very normal people do. I enjoyed it.
4. Hyperbole and a Half: Unfortunate Situations, Flawed Coping Mechanisms, Mayhem, and Other Things That Happened - Allie Brosh. It's weird to me that I've only just read this. I read the blog back before it was the biggest thing on the internet. I read it before everyone knew it. And I felt kind of sad when it was suddenly public property instead of that one blog for weird people to laugh-cry at. I laughed at a lot of this. The new-for-the-book material is probably weaker than the original blog posts that make up about half the content, which makes me wonder what the new book (sitting on my bookshelf after being a Christmas gift) is going to be like. But it was fun. And I snort laughed at old jokes.
5. Rebecca - Daphne du Maurier I can't believe how much I liked this book. Unfortunately I made the mistake of reading the short essay at the end of the edition I bought which offered an incredibly facile review of the themes. The argument in the essay was that Rebecca was the most interesting and full character this is obviously nonsense: almost everything we learn about Rebecca comes from the fantasies of the narrator. The essay also noted that the house was a significant presence but failed to grasp the things which the house represented. The house is a representation of du Winter's mother and his failure to separate from her - this seems especially clear given what the essay notes about du Maurier's awareness of Freud - Maxim's terror of women, dramatised through his horror at Rebecca's sexuality and his sister's self possession, AND his lack of respect for the lesbian Mrs Danvers, are all evidence of this. That the narrator wants to be wife AND mother to him all confirm this depiction of his immature psyche. What I found interesting though was not du Winter, but the narrator's shift from passivity to submission and in submission she is awakened and empowered and strengthened. All of this is missed in the essay, which weakly ends saying women like to buy romances, and melodrama is negative. Fuck off, you missed the point.
6. On Connection - Kae Tempest It's not perfect. But my goodness, it does have a lot of useful things to say.
February
7. Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny - Holly Madison I've wanted to read this since it came out as I was obsessed with the slow car crash of post feminism that was The Girls Next Door (or "Girls of the Playboy Mansion' as it was broadcast in the UK). Good things, it seems either ghost written or heavily edited. The authors note at the beginning is borderline illiterate so I'm glad she wasn't given total authorship. Bad things; it's problematic as hell that she talks about lengthy, textbook abusive relationships as "whirlwind romances that ended badly" instead of labelling them for what they were. She's throwing women under the bus left right and centre for behaving in the same ways she did, or different ways for the same reasons and I wanted to shake her into a proper feminist awareness. But what can you do. It's sad. I feel like solidarity with other women is what all of these women need more than anything else.
March-May
Nothing.
June
9. Night Watch - Terry Pratchett I needed to be at home somewhere, and Ankh will always be welcoming, especially when I get to walk the streets with Sam.
10. The Galaxy and the Ground Within - Becky Chambers This was the first book I have read - or piece of art of any sort - which is in any way about the pandemic/lockdown. I don't know if it was because I was in a weird place, or because of the lockdown allegory, but I didn't love this. It never really got going. As ever, the characterisation was flawless and the people were all real. But it didn't land anywhere hard, like the other three in the series did. It was nice to live there for a while, all the same.
July
11. Going Postal - Terry Pratchett I remember loving this the first time I read it. Perhaps it is my low mood or perhaps I have just moved on in some way, but I found it unevenly weighted in the narrative and although it had some excellent bits, it's not one of my all time favourites anymore.
August
12. Solutions and Other Problems - Allie Brosh This was tremendous. I had put off reading it because the first book was quite nothingy in the end but this is a whole, intentional book. There are themes and stuff. It's sad and devastatingly on the money via a light touch of laugh out loud bits - which such be impossible but isn't.
September
13. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows - JK Rowling I started reading this months ago on the grounds I find HP a comfort but the peril was too much and I stopped. Picked it up and finished it over a couple of days in the sun.
14. Sensible Footwear: A Girl's Guide - Kate Charlesworth This is part memoir, part history of LGBT rights in the UK. I really liked it as a resource, and the interspersing of personal with broader community history. I found the pattern made it hard to read in a sustained way - which I wanted to because of the personal story. And sometimes facts would be repeated which added to it feeling a bit of a slog in places. But it's a lovely history, and so nice to have a UK, women focused one.
October
15.