34/52 - Done In

 It's been a draining week for lots of small reasons which add up to just feeling done in.

Some things will be resolved by the end of next week, some things have already been worked through and made light, some things I'm choosing to step away from for now.

I don't want to give more energy to detailing any of it. But it's useful to me to note that some weeks you're just running to stand still. And remember that not every week will be this week.

This time next week I'll be one night away from seeing Teddy. I'll be on annual leave. I'll have crossed a job off my work to do list that's been nagging for months. And I hope I'll be feeling lighter.

There are still loads of wonderful, good things in my life. There are WhatsApp messages pinging away on my phone from lots of different people who are letting me know in lots of different ways that I matter to them. There are people who have gone out of their way today, been generous, and made my life better. And those things are cumulatively huge. When my energy restores I can pay all that care forward again. The cycles of generosity and random acts of kindness which shape my days are spectacular and make me marvel at what we can all do for each other with such small steps