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Work Precarity
Dec. 6th, 2018 11:55 am Work is a pit of hell and stress and nightmareish crap.
Got told what I suspected but hoped against the other week - not getting my contract renewed so I'm unemployed in September.
Which, fine.
Except I applied for another job the other month and didn't get shortlisted, then learnt my manager (head of department) was on the hiring panel, and she was all "if you'd applied for that job with your current CV you would have been interviewed" and I was like "I did." And she had no answer. And I applied for another job which had 315 applicants, I made top 8 and they interviewed top 4, and hired 2.
I have been told I am "well rounded" and "outstanding" from two different people involved in hiring panels, and I'm not even getting interviews.
Suspected another temp-contract colleague (4 of us were told there was no job for us in September, she wasn't told anything) was going to get a permanent contract, despite Head of Department telling me they weren't able to offer anyone permanent contracts. Sure enough, this colleague messaged me today. I congratulated her heartily - I am really am so glad for her. But I am also gutted for me, of course.
I could weep at the frustration and injustice and impossibility.
I do everything right, and it's still not enough. All I want is a permanent job so I can know where my money is coming from in a years time, and actually move forward in my life.
I cannot keep doing this, but I don't know what else to do - and I don't want to walk away from academia because I do love the job when I actually get to do it.
Got told what I suspected but hoped against the other week - not getting my contract renewed so I'm unemployed in September.
Which, fine.
Except I applied for another job the other month and didn't get shortlisted, then learnt my manager (head of department) was on the hiring panel, and she was all "if you'd applied for that job with your current CV you would have been interviewed" and I was like "I did." And she had no answer. And I applied for another job which had 315 applicants, I made top 8 and they interviewed top 4, and hired 2.
I have been told I am "well rounded" and "outstanding" from two different people involved in hiring panels, and I'm not even getting interviews.
Suspected another temp-contract colleague (4 of us were told there was no job for us in September, she wasn't told anything) was going to get a permanent contract, despite Head of Department telling me they weren't able to offer anyone permanent contracts. Sure enough, this colleague messaged me today. I congratulated her heartily - I am really am so glad for her. But I am also gutted for me, of course.
I could weep at the frustration and injustice and impossibility.
I do everything right, and it's still not enough. All I want is a permanent job so I can know where my money is coming from in a years time, and actually move forward in my life.
I cannot keep doing this, but I don't know what else to do - and I don't want to walk away from academia because I do love the job when I actually get to do it.